我只想说

我现在很疲惫。。。

就那么多

2010年的农历新年

年三十
原本以为今年的新年会是很糟糕的，哪知道还不错^^

下午才跑回家，一如往常我们家的团圆饭都是吃午餐的。

我回到时，大伙儿都吃过了，闲啦。。

今年不一样的是小舅抱了他的宝回家，应该是有一岁了吧。。

年初一

睡到下午才起床，舅娘大很多通电话来问我到底要不要跟着会槟城？

我的行李还没收拾，才睡醒，匆匆忙忙收拾+洗澡+洗脸刷牙。

之后到外婆家，行李搬上舅舅车，吃着外婆打包给我的自家便当，就这样跑去槟城了。

到了槟城后，阿东他们就抓我出去喝茶了，哈哈～

年初二

早上很早起身，出去巴杀吃早餐。

之后便去邻居家及亲戚家拜年，很好玩下。。

之后很无聊，我跟我表妹俩人在扑克牌，哈哈～

傍晚，在外婆家steamboat，饱到。。。。

吃饱后，我一直煲电话粥，因为我的是DiGi campus 嘛。。

晚上宵夜，出去巴杀那里吃咯。。

年初三

一样，很早起身出去巴杀吃早餐。

下午跟yit fang及alice跑queensbay mall，我们去吃龙的传人，还不错。。

之后晚餐，又吃steamboat，lol。。

晚上我们跑去queensbay mall买戏票，很不幸的我表妹的车中了一张随意乱泊车的牛肉干。

之后在还没回家之前，对了，吃宵夜！！

年初四

同样地，早上早起跑出去巴杀吃早餐。

之后便准备出发去queensbay mall会见我表妹的网友。

我不认识的，不过被抓着去的，哈哈～

幸好有跟着去，我认识很都新朋友，他们人都很nice一下。

刚开始大家都很pai seh的，之后一天下来大家都混熟了，还有少少舍不得呢。

晚上我们一伙人跑去chris的生日派对，玩到很晚才回家。

说真的，很高兴认识这一群新的朋友，希望大家以后常联络^^

年初五

早上早起出去巴杀吃早餐已经慢慢成为习惯了。

吃过了早餐后，阿东过来带我去penang road吃cendol及 Lo-Bak，一流啊！

之后回到来，我们便跑出去new world park吃午餐。

东西普通，价钱贵了些【比起普通的】

原本两点回的，之后拖到五点钟才闪人，嘻嘻

我抱着依依不舍的心情踏着回家的旅程，还不想回咯～～

年初六

没什么节目，跟家里人出去餐馆吃午餐。

之后去T1和云云及美玲三人聚会。

晚上在外婆家混日子。

年初七【今天】

下午找去伟明家及振荣家拜年。

之后去Rahang新开张的carrefour吃KFC。

终结：

1. 我肥了4KG

2.今年新年的槟城之旅很难忘

3.很开心能和槟城的朋友聚会及认识新的朋友

4.能和芙蓉的一些朋友见面

5.我还没去可欣家拜年，惨咯～～

my bullshit CNY

I'm not in the mood of celebrating Chinese New Year. I still in my stay place in PJ. I feel this CNY is coming so sudden, I'm not yet ready for it. That's so many things I need to settle now, so many worries here and there. I can't concentrate while doing things.

Today is the the day where I suppose to have my reunion dinner with my family members. But don't know why I feel reluctant to go home, don't want to have CNY this year. Weird huh? The trauma are back, I don't feel good. It's quite sad to recall it and my recent dreams is really disturbing. I don't know why I keep having weird dreams. In these dreams, I was always crying sadly, so so sad. When I wake up, these feeling was still with me. I can feel the sadness, nearly to those depression sadness.(I think)

New year clothes I did bought some during 2009 year end & x'mas sales. I didn't bought any red colour shirt. I don't really like red colour, I prefer blue or green. Therefore, most of my new shirts are these two colours.

For this year CNY, I did lou yu sang this monday in MidValley TMC, received a card from Kelly C, have a mandarin orange(steal it from Tessa T) and received some greeting messages from friends via Facebook/SMS. So far that's all. I don't have much expectation on CNY this year, I know angpao $$ is around that amount, almost the same every year. This year at first I planned to have my CNY in Penang, but at last I pulled out. Reason is I don't feel like going =.=

For the first 2-3 days of CNY, according to our family culture we will visit some relatives. Seremban, Sendayan, Seputeh & Salak Selatan, that's all. From this year onwards, I will not able to see my 2nd grandaunt. She passed away last year March, I will miss her. She's the one who always give positive encouragement to me :(

For the rest of the days, most probably I will hide in my room and be lazy. That's all. How ah? Now I still at PJ, seriously I don't feel like want to go home. You all might think something with me, but I don't think so. I don't feel bad you know? So sien.. CNY is really causing pressure to me la.. I don't like CNY, what so great of CNY? It was just a date on a calendar, for me it makes no difference. It's just another day.

When I think of I have to sit for my mid-sem tests right after the 1 week holiday, even worst.. Just have my early breakfast just now, now I'm full and can't sleep. Well, another year gone.

p/s: this is a bullshit post.

至：伟杰

刺猬之所以会刺伤他人，有时後并不是他想要的，

而是他下意识的自卫的反应。

老实说，我刺伤过很多人。

但是有一位朋友，是我感到最内疚及抱歉的。

他，是一位关心我的朋友。

他，虽然不是我认识最久的朋友，可是却是我最信赖的朋友。

他，在我伤心的时候愿意听我诉苦。

他，是我至今唯一想挽回我们友情的朋友。

我在一段快得忧郁症的日子里，漠视他对我的关心。

我甚至把他臭骂一顿，对他乱发脾气。

我当时残酷的举动及言语伤了这朋友的心，

他为了我流下眼泪，而我当时却无动于衷。

他不断地问我发生什么事，可我却隐瞒了他很多事。

对不起，我不应该这样地对待你。

对不起，是我误会了你，是我的错。

对不起，是我自己太敏感了。

对不起，我的举动与言语伤害了你。

对不起，我让你伤心流泪。

说真的，我真的后悔，很想鼓起勇气向你道歉。

我每次想起你这位朋友就感到很内疚，

这事件是我一手造成的。

在此，我诚意地向你道歉。

伟杰，

对不起，你可以原谅我吗？

你，还愿意当我的好友吗？

第五个星期

踏入第五个星期了！

让我来回顾一下上几个星期在干什么。

第一个星期：

基本上没什么东西做，忙着course registration。

第二个星期：

厉害咯，开始上课了。

我跑了MAS Melor TMC, PJ Hilton TMC, HELP TMC 及周日的一个婚礼。

第三个星期：

开始学习了，大部分的科目进入第二课。

拜五，拜六及礼拜忙着MidValley TMC's YLP :P

第四个星期：

开始懒惰了，没去上peda及stat，counselling的quiz幸好还会做。

这星期没温习，要检讨了。

拜五peda的会议没出席，惨了。。

这个星期要做的事物有：

1. 赶快搞定peda的事

2. 准备stat的quiz

3. 吹TM快点搞定我的internet

4. 准备迎接新年

5. 还有快快把债务给还清，新年欠人钱很衰的，哈哈～

还有，这个星期的TMC行程有：

MidValley TMC, UNITAR TMC 比赛及 MASKargo TMC。

这个星期的目标：出席每一堂课，嘻嘻^^

-新年要到了，yeah！-

MidValley TM Club Youth Leadership Programme @ SMK Subang Utama

DAY 1

Assignment 1:

Participants were required to introduce themselves, there's discussion between mentors and participants on preparing this speech. Well, as you can see, I'm one of the mentor. ^^

The participants are really awesome << (V:Loud,P:High,R:Fast)

They managed to did it well, it really surprise most of the mentors in this programme.

They all have no problem in speaking as well as they are really confident, wow!!

Day 2

Assignment 2:

Well, there's improvement in most of the participants in their speech organization.

Some have really wonderful and attention grabbing opening,
For closing of their speech, I realized my mentee have improved.

Today participants were exposure to more skills like vocal variety, body language and etc.

Up to this point, I have listened to a variety of speeches. From educational, factual to the controversial one, they dare themselves to take the challenge, well done!

Day 3

Last assignment (Contest Speech):

This is the day, where all the participants are going to amaze everyone in the room by presenting their speech with all the communication skills that they learnt this few days.

I'm glad to see and witness the growing of all the participants, they are now no doubt a really communicator! They have improve their communications skills, like their vocal variety, body gestures, the rate of their speech and etc. I'm really proud of my mentee, he managed to incorporate all the skills that he learnt into his final speech.

Today is the climate of this programme, everyone give their best in their speech. Again, I like the topics that they choose to talk. It's really great, entertaining, informative and some were really sincere.

After prize giving ceremony to the winners, it's coming to the end of this programme.

I was given some tokens of appreciation from MidValley Toastmasters club and SMK Subang Utama.

Words from me:

This programme is really awesome, congratulations to the organizer Gerald, what a successful and fruitful programme. I learnt so much in this programme, especially on the evaluation part as well as communication skills. I'm glad to have this opportunity to work with other experienced toastmasters members, and also not forgetting the participants from SMK Subang Utama. You guys really amazing and so eager to learn more to make yourself a better speaker. At here, I wishes you guys all the best in your future!! ^^

-THE END-