Hometown--家乡

                        

LAST 这一次

过去的，我不想再提了～

重要的是，我知道要怎么做了～

turning over a new leaf~~

Inner ME

tell me what's wrong? anything happened?

does tell you make things different?

if not, then what for telling you?

ya so what i am a loser?

who care? you care? bull shit!

who the hell you think you are? 

you're no one to me!

oh no, we care for you, we are always beside you.

we listen to your problem, we care you.

please la.. don't bullshit and say these to anyone anymore.

how are you going to make sure you are always beside me?

do you know me well? do you know when i cry?

do you know what i need? really??

people say oh let's be friend, what is friend actually?

when bored then only think of you

when sick only tell you to get sympathy and pity from you

when facing trouble then only find you to get helps

when no money ask you to pay for them

when no transport ask you to fetch them

when need someone stupid to do job for them 

when there is something from you that can be useful for them

friendship is fragile as love-relationship.

people will betray you when there's conflict of benefit

you don't teach me what to do 

how to behave and etc.

who do you think you are and why should i listen to you?

because you are someone great?

you thought you are my savior? 

oh that's funny.. what a naive immature human being

don't tell me things like no one can change you but yourself

how well do you know me?

how much did i told you about me?

you know a lot huh? how many page you can write about me?

few pages? 50 pages? 

people are selfish

they will care you when you are still worth something to them

you will be abandoned once your value gone.

believe it or not, it happened all the time in everyone life

please don't treat me nice okay?

unless you have confidence that you are going to treat me nice until the day i die.

if not, get lost from my life.

i have enough of you guys, who claim to be like someone life savior

i won't fully trust anyone, anymore

don't question my decision or what i think

you have no right to question me

you are just no one in my eye, okay!?

ya i like to stay in my small little pathetic world

so what, what does it have to matter with you?

stop looking for me anymore

i'm not your puppet, i don't have to follow your instructions

you think you care about me so much?

i don't really care what you are going to think and say about me

it's not important.

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS before you come and bother my life

go away!!

People say if you treat people nice, people will treat you back same.

in real life, it's definitely something that you shouldn't practice.

don't be stupid and believe fairy tale

time to grow up and face this cruel real life.

people won't appreciate your efforts and care

people just take it like you willing to do it

so don't blame me if in future no one care about you.

see? cool huh? 

have time better spent it for yourself.

got money treat yourself better

don't waste your money for other people.

people will won't appreciate anything from anyone.

stay alone, being a loner, mean you are lonely?

you are actually opening the gate of freedom for yourself.

loyalty is only for DOG

not for human

people say they will be faithful and loyal to you

BULLSHIT!!

i don't believe in people anymore

no one will treat you nice one, 

don't be stupid and hoping you will get someone someday

don't ever give yourself any hope.

the greater your hope is, the deeper you are going to get hurt.

don't hope okay, just forget about it.

there's no hope one, hope is for loser that can't accept the fact.

i'm not a good guy, good student, good son and etc

don't ever put any hope on me

hope i achieve something

hope i will change because of your few words of wisdom

hope this and that

i'm not your Aladdin, i don't have to live like what you think i should

you can look for other for that, but not me.

i don't want to have any relationship with anyone

no more friendship, it's gone

go away and stay away from me, stop bothering me you thick face 

dun tell me you worry me

stop pretending you care me, it makes me feel so sick.

stop wearing your idiot mask and pretend and acting

i'm not play drama here okay?

save your time and don't waste my time

i dun need anyone.

go continue faking like you care about your friend with your other friends.

not with me!!

don't ask me anything or tell me anything here

i won't answer you 

i won't tell you

this is my attitude, my life, not happy? back off lo..

I DON'T CARE ALSO LAR!!!

I'm tired, time to sleep.

that's all for this post.

14 days

Shut down everything for just 14 days...

Focus for just 14 days...

Take the accountability of your own decision...

I shall stick to the plan, just 14 days..

Work really hard for it...

:)

Bon Jovi - You Give Love A Bad Name

This is the song for today.

Shot through the heart, and your to blame, darling
You give love a bad name

An angel's smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven then put me through hell
Chains of love, got a hold on me
When passion's a prison you can't break free

You're a loaded gun ... yeah
There's nowhere to run
No-one can save me, the damage is done

Shot through the heart, and your to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
You give love a bad name

You paint your smile on your lips
Blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boys dream, you act so shy
Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye

You're a loaded gun
There's nowhere to run
No-one can save me, the damage is done

Shot through the heart, and your to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
You give love.....

Shot through the heart and your to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name

Shot through the heart and your to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name

You give love....
You give love a bad name
You give love....
You give love a bad name
You give love....
You give love a bad name

Home sweet home

Mum is calling, "son ah, something wrong with our house internet la. i can't online and talk to your sister." I replied, "okay lah, this week i shall come home and fix it."

Well, this is the conversation of me and my mum few days back then.

Today i came home quite late, evening time only drive home. Don't ask me why, cuz I'm so lazy today. It's Sunday, it should be the laziest day and it's I'm absolutely right to behave lazy for today.. lol.. what a lame excuse, isn't?  :P

Going back home is exciting, the feeling of "oh finally can go back REAL home" was good. I enjoy driving back home. I like to think a lot during the journey. Last time when I'm still car-less, I used go back to hometown by motorbike. No matter what weather, be it raining day, sunny day or sometime at night. Now things change, a good change la. I owned a car, at least now I no need to drive a motorbike back home during rain =)

Today was really a great day. I saw a lot of plane taking off and landing. OMG, that's really awesome and almost lift me up to sky, syok la.. The only thing that never fail to cheer me up -- AEROPLANE. You might wonder why? Well, it's a long story, so leave it to the upcoming post. I feel so so so so so good while saw them, ahh... [i'm crazy a bit ]

By the time I reached grandma house, the sky turn dark. Grandma came out from house and give me a warm smile, yeah I'm home!! She asked me a lot of things, while  walking all the way into kitchen, she told me that she did kept dishes for me, on a big plate. So nice.. I got vege, fish, pork, wow.. Home-cooked meal, I miss it so much la.. Nowadays most of the time eating outside, last time staying home don't really care to eat at home, always go out for fast food or tapao.

We chit chat about the family members, the family gossip things, lol.. And then grandma help me to massage my leg when she knew that my leg is pain. Thank you grandma! I care about her so much, just like how much she care about me. That's why my grandma is one of the woman that i sayang and care the most in the world. =)

Today is a really a warm and happy day for me. So long time didn't have home-cooked meal as dinner, miss my grandma so much and finally can chit chat and meet her and also my family members. I appreciate all these precious moments, although for some people, it's just nothing.

Oh, home sweet home.. *love*


Good night world!
Sweet dream to everyone!!

 

十月份

1. 跑步

昨天去了一趟The Gardens，主要是去买跑步鞋～ 我手上有MIZUNO的30% 折扣卷，所以就去MIZUNO专卖店～ 有点失望，我原本想买的鞋竟然没有，只有旧一款的而已～ 没办法，我真的需要一双鞋子，所以就买下了它。

MIZUNO WAVE ALCHEMY 9

 p/s: 它是我人生中的第一双跑鞋 :) 

2. 朋友

近日发生一些事情，我的选择：欣然接受。我什么都不想说，只想静静地让事情随着时间淡化～ 朋友说我比较静了，的却是的。我暂时不太想有太多的交际，所以。。无论如何，谢谢朋友们的关心与支持～ 有位朋友在读了我部落格后，给我寄了短讯～ 我感到很温暖，很窝心，谢谢你朋友～ 

3. 想念

很想念某位朋友，不懂他在近来在忙些什么，生活过得是否如意呢？昨天经过The Gardens的蓬莱茶坊，就进去吃了炸酱面套餐+布丁奶茶～ 那位朋友说，这餐厅的味道很台湾，所以啊，我想台湾炸酱面的味道应该是这样子的～ 不懂何时我们能在重聚呢？

好了，不写了～
我要出去跑步了，拜拜～

Lecturer S

My lecturer is really bull shxt and insane la!!

This morning I met her in the campus, I first great her with good morning madam and asked her what time is our last week replacement class is?
Well, guess what she told me next?

**[she lower her glasses and given me "that kind" of @£&%%€ expression ]
She said, Jeff you can't affort to miss any classes or I will barred you from sitting final exam.
Then I told her last Saturday I can't attend the replacement class because I'm having another class.
The she replied, I don't care. << what the heck?!

Well, no announcement in student portal, week before that she did told us about the replacement class, but time and venue wasn't specified.
Hey come on, you don't tell me time and venue then how am I suppose to attend the class? Somemore I'm having other class as well..

Fed up her bossy attitude la...
I won't be defeated that easily! Let's see what surprise am I getting from her next..
I shall survive in this war, again!

心底话

期望越大，失望越大

所以最好就是别期望任何事

日子真的很难过，前面的路很难走

我最近常在钻牛角尖

我不断地想，想了很久还是没答案

究竟我在干什么啊？

我的心很痛，很辛苦

难道没有解决的方法吗？

很多话想说，很想找人谈天

可是见到面我说不出口

今晚我又失眠了，很累却不能入睡

我快忍不住了，再这样下去我快疯掉

不打了，闷

:(

日誌

日期：2010年9月23日
時間：下午5點38分
天氣：晴

現在我聽著盧廣仲的nice to meet you，今天大半天就這樣過了～ 早上睡醒去上課，sociology of education～ 抱著有點退縮及膽怯的心情去上課，因為是那講師我還蠻怕她的～ 結果沒想像中那麼糟糕啦，有被她惡整到，但沒關係反正只不過是小事一樁～ 我今天在班上代表著小組發表，哈哈～ 感覺還蠻棒的，因為大家都很專心地聽我說話～ 感謝你們咯～


今天我下午我真的很餓！本來說好等朋友一起吃，但大家一副要理不理的感覺～ 算了，我真的很餓，心情真的很差，最後我選擇走人，我自己吃！你們可能會覺的我小氣，發神經～ 但你們有沒有站在我的角度想想呢？我不想多說，做人不需要太假，太做作～ 我就是這樣，不愛戴面具，就是我行我素的一個人～ 如果你們有看到這篇日誌的話，希望你們別想太多，我對事不對人～


最近，我喜歡一個人躲在家，不開心時就喝瓶vodka或啤酒消消氣～ 感覺很好，其中的樂趣我想只有我懂～ 我並不是嗜酒或喝到爛醉的程度，純粹喜歡那感覺～ 不用擔心我，OK？我很喜歡現在的生活，很自由～ 不必工作，只需忙讀書及搞社團的事～ 


希望接下來的日子的能安穩及自在地過～ 
做人啊，最重要是是開心，不是嗎？


傑夫筆
^_^

恶梦

到底还要多久我才能不发恶梦，安稳的睡觉啊？！

我昨晚又梦见当天家被进贼的情况，一模一样～ 这一次，我选择用刀在门缝下刺那贼的脚板，我很用力的刺。家的alarm响了，贼逃之夭夭～ 我走下楼看，玻璃窗及大门开到大大的～我很怕，赶快报警～心想我的天啊，第二次进贼？在惊恐的状态下，我被吓醒～ 我全身冒冷汗，湿嗒嗒的～

这已经是不懂第几个恶梦了！自从上个月尾我PJ的家被进贼之后，我差不多每隔几天就来个恶梦作伴。我快受不了了！！！

这样精神上的折磨，到底还要缠着我多久啊？已经三个星期多了，我似乎还有后遗症～ trauma啊！我的心就快没力了，受不了～～

大家有什么建议，不妨跟我分享。
谢谢～

阴影

心口还是很痛，真的很难受

以为时间能愈合曾被伤害的心，原来并不会

事隔那么久了，我还是不能释怀那件事

原来。。。

我还未走出那阴影

4th sept ~ 拾八風味@ tropicana city mall

fenin, ai sya, yan mui & tessa

流沙包

流沙包（2）

tessa吃的冰 + 整桌的佳肴

拾八风味的招牌

杰夫在购物商场

它的decor还不错～

ai sya & jeff

（完）

换位

           

不要把对方的包容，当成无能；

                     

不要把对方的善良，当成懦弱；

           

不要把对方的仁慈，当成习惯；

          

不要把对方的付出，当成理所应当。

           

             

Jeff's August 2010

It wasn't easy to survive through this month, all good and not-so-good things come like tidal wave. I have so many challenges and yet many awaiting me in coming days. WELL, what to do? Stay optimistic and pray hard that things back to normal as soon as possible..


#1 - Health

After my first round of orientation programme, I'm prone to illness :( I guess it is because I'm too tired, in term of psychically and mentally. Imagine only 3 hours sleep for a week, have to wake up early in the morning at 6 am, then start moving around until 6 pm. I have to get quick rest and have dinner because I go to work at 9pm which will ends on 2 am. Guess your eyes and mouth are open widely now, can't imagine and believe this happened? Well, I had make it through.

Right after the programme, of course I start to fall sick. Headache, stomachache, diarrhea, nausea, vomiting and fever are my close friend for this few weeks. I can't eat much, no oily food, no milk product, no curry foods, or else I will vomit like a pregnant mama. Been suffering in term of health and until today I still taking medicine, the illness is like on and off. I'm going for a detail body checkup like blood test and etc if tomorrow the illness still there.

Pretty pathetic isn't? :( Well, I guess I just need more rest and maybe god just want to let me be more aware my of health. So readers, no worry, I will take care of myself because I know many people out there care about me.     [xoxo]


#2 - Intruder of peaceful life

Well, I believe those close friends or friends who care about me know what is happening to me this week. Someone broke into my house in Taman Mayang this Wed, early in the morning. I can say that it was one of the scary moment in my life. I still suffer trauma from it, I'm scare to sleep alone, and I need to switch on light while I'm sleeping. My sleep quality is bad and I easily get anxious whenever I heard any noise. I hope I never have to go through dawn everyday, can I just skip it? Well, on the other side, I keep on thinking and thinking for the best safety measurement that can ensure my safety as well as my housemates. Changing new locks, setting up house alarm system, be more alert and conscious all the time, and *maybe raise a dog to guard the house. This week this is what I keep on thinking. Safety, my life safety! God bless me..

p/s: I'm so lucky and thanks god that morning I wake up and avoid the mishappening.


#3 - My study

Oh god, this week I attend no class. I mean either class cancelled or I absent from it due to sick or the house break in matter.Luckily I just started my new semester and it's only week 2. Catching up with the syllabus is my first priority after I'm done with safety issue. Maslow's hierarchy of needs apply, safety needs. before I go for other aspects in my life.


Well, so far this is my update for month of August 2010. May god keep looking after me and bless me psychically, mentally and spiritually. Looking forward a better month.. September I'm coming!!
 

8th-13th Aug >> Orientation Programme for August 2010 Intake @ UniRazak Campus

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

  

INFINITY UNITY

  

 

THANK YOU 

FOR

VIEWING

-the end-

BUSY

I'M BUSY, WISH TO UPDATE MY BLOG BUT NO TIME~

WILL BE BACK AFTER 1 WEEK

STAY TUNE!

傑夫很忙，我其實還有很多網誌想寫，但真的沒時間

等我忙完著一個星期再來寫吧～

別走開咯～

jeff·傑夫

28&29 July 2010 ～ 雲頂高原@Genting Highland (II)

星期四（29-07-2010）

看完電影后，我們兩個男生回到酒店休息～
說真的，超級好睡～因為我們都累了～

不過睡到三點鐘，我就被設定好的鬧鐘吵醒～

我吵醒了wesley，去廁所洗一洗臉，我們便下去會合兩個女生～

凌晨三點鐘，我們坐在雲頂starbucks戶外的桌子，品嚐著冰咖啡～

這體驗真的很特別～

我們一共四人，四杯starbucks！

jeff & wesley


之後，我們一行人便回酒店睡覺～
累～

早上八點鐘我就睡醒了～
當然，全部人都還在睡～都被我吵醒～
我和wesley在酒店樓下的咖啡廳吃過我們早餐～
女生們則選擇在酒店吃杯面及麵包
因為～～～
早餐每位RM 29.90 nett！！

吃過早餐後，我們回到酒店洗澡及收拾我們的行李
之後便check out
之後呢，
我們去到巴士站～

～我們在等待巴士是拍了一些照片～

wesley

jeff

yan mei，雲頂代言人

kelly及yan mei，兩大美女哦～

最後，我抱著依依不捨的心情踏上回家的路程

個人感想

老實說，我心情難過了好幾天～

因為真的很想念大家

一下子靜下來的感覺很恐怖～

不過我相信在不久的將來

我們會再次出遊～

我們的下一站，馬六甲！

-完-

28&29 July 2010 ～ 雲頂高原@Genting Highland (I)

在UniRazak呆了快兩年的時間，這可是我第一次有系友出遊～

星期三（28-07-2010）

我早上去Giant買了很多杯面及吃的，之後便去到KL sentral與大家會面～

感覺很狼狽，我一個人拿著大包小包的，加上一個大背包～

上了巴士後，我們的雲頂高原的兩天一日遊開始咯。。。

一路上，我跟志威聊了很多～

感謝志威跟我分享那麼多的善知識，而且也啟發了我很多對事情的看法～

=）

原本我還以為我們會在半山乘搭纜車上去的～

哪知道那巴士就沒停，就這樣我們被載上去山頂了

我下巴士後便走向那兒的員工詢問詳情

原來～～～纜車站關閉到下個月，據說他們在做維修。

check-in後，我們在房間呆了一下下～

之後都受不了，便到第一世界廣場吃午餐～

我跟志威跑去food court吃素食～

那兒的素食真的很不錯，我叫的炒飯很美味！

吃過午飯後，我們去了Ripley's Believe It or Not

裡頭有很多千奇百怪的東西～

有一個開不了的門，但它的牌子上說是能開的～

在裡頭，我也發現有一隻貓咪，它會用湯匙，筷子吃東西～

更讓我傻眼的是，它名叫Tessa！ = ='''

來看看一些在裡頭拍的照片～

志威+巨人【不懂他名】+kelly

來巨人，看鏡頭，笑一個～say cheese～

志威：“我終於握到他的手了，好棒！”

傑夫：“手別放過來啦～我在擺pose啦！！”

來，拍一張！友誼萬歲！cheers！

我覺得最好玩的東西應該是影子拍照及讓人暈眩的跑道吧！

我們都在那玩了很多回，很好玩也很好笑～呵呵～

之後呢，kelly及yan mei去賭場觀光，我和志威則跑去遊戲場玩～

哈哈～～偶爾玩玩好像還不錯嘛～主要是在玩籃球機及射擊遊戲

之後呢，我便回到房間休息+吃晚餐（杯面，麵包+美祿）

回到房間後，我們一直在鬧個不停～回想真的很好笑～

首先是鬧wesley，讓他不能睡覺～

之後就一直跟他搶枕頭，用枕頭打人～

呵呵～wesley被我們逼著去洗澡，然後我們便去買戲票看戲～

我們看了‘人間喜劇’～在戲院裡我跟Wesley倆人笑到快瘋掉，可是呢。。。

kelly及mei倆人一直在怨很無聊，結果看到一半他們便離場了～

我們戲後一直在討論那一部戲，有那麼不好笑嗎？

諸葛頭秋及司徒春運明明就很好笑嘛～～

--待續--

我，不爭氣

今天我心情就快掉到谷底～

我竟然連那麼簡單的問題也答不到～

我很慚愧，很無地自容～

我對不起父母，對不起給我加油的人，我更對不起我自己～

我很討厭自己，明知道要考試了還不努力～

真的很簡單的題目，因為我未做100%的溫習而喪失了40%

就算carry marks：39/40 ，又怎樣？

看來我遠離我目標拿A很遠了～

這還能怪誰呢？只能怪自己，都我錯，都我不好～

我今天心裡很矛盾及很難過～

想找人傾訴，可是不懂該找誰。。。

我現在感到很累，很想睡覺，想逃避～

真想窩在被窩裡頭，哪兒都不去，什麼都不做～

我是不是很窩囊啊？

可是不行啦，我待會兒還是得去工作～

是時候收拾自己的心情，把情緒擱一邊，繼續忙我該做的事情～

不爭氣的傑夫筆

日誌

Yesterday，昨天

Daily fresh 的 waffle，昨天趁工作短休15分鐘的時間跑去Plaza Sooka買的～

我要了一份巧克力+草莓口味的，好好吃哦～～【肚子餓的時候吃什麼都好吃】

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以下的麵包，是我的同事自己烘培的哦～

她可是某知名的麵包店裡的～～～～學徒

以後會升級麵包師傅啦～謝謝你請我吃，很好吃哦～

下次烘個蛋糕給我試一試吧～ :p

昨晚放工回家，要領機車回家時，

我看見～～～～

對，沒錯～～就是我的頭盔被人硬偷走了！

那賊用刀片把我頭盔的帶子給割斷～

這也太瞎了吧？！

結果呢，我沒辦法，只好硬著頭皮在沒帶頭盔的情況下騎機車回家～～

瞎 x 100～～～

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號外篇

我的愛犬，小白～上個星期回家拍的～～

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