本来还在同一个世界，现在好像变的好遥远！
好一句贴切的句子，我也有同感。我们的距离，不再是以前从前房间走几步路到后面房了。
本来有着很多交错点的世界，渐渐地变成两条平行线。
这都是因为大家各自为自己的前途在奔波。
我们认识快要一年了，但是你总让我觉得我们已是老友鬼鬼了，嘻嘻【不是再说你老或像鬼哦】
想起一年前的我，再拿现在的我来做比较。哇，我还真的变了很多。
话说回来，虽然我们的联络是少了，
但我还蛮常想念你的，真的咯。。
我没有变心咯，哈哈。。
对了，你说要请我喝STARBUCKS的哦，好像都很久了，几时要兑现啊？
嘻嘻 
今天在facebook看见朋友玩一个quiz，“5 Cell phones I had since my first one”。
于是让我想起我曾用过的手机及它们那时候的一些记忆。
我人生中的第一只手机，nokia 3610。
它，曾经是我人生中最重要，最有型的代表。
我还记得，那只手机是我在芙蓉南方买的。
很可惜，那支手机被我在云顶玩碰碰车时掉了。
第一支手机，遗失了，真的很害怕，不懂怎样向老妈交代。
第二只手机，samsung c100。
这只手机，是我跟我表妹一起买的。
在芙蓉明记旁边的手机店买的。
这支手机，我说服了我老妈很久，她才让我买的。
那时候，我们一大伙人去买的，买了AP机【贪便宜】。
之后用不久后，便开始有问题，之后问题多多，真的很麻烦。
因为以前彩色手机刚推出，很多bugs，firmware不稳。
之后，那架电话sot sot了，趁它还能function赶快拿到金河去trade-in。
我的第三架电话，nokia 2300，
在中五陪了我一整年的时间，
它是我用在中四假期工作赚来的钱买的。
它，除了是我手机，也是我的回忆。
以前，我都带手机去学校，让mr. sunny 或 mr. malai保管，
放学后再去领取。
我那时候还是搭巴士来回芙蓉的，
携带手机去学校很方便，我可以让我妈找到我，
当巴士快回到文丁时我就会打给老妈，叫他来载我。
还有，有了2300，我又没那么闷了，
因为它的收音机，我可以听电台播放的歌。
之后，下半年我就没打电话给我妈了，
因为我有摩托驾照了，所以就自己骑摩托到大街。
年尾，我被允许校长自己保管自己的手机。【special case】
条件时不能让别人知道，哈哈～～
之后，电话又开始有问题了。应该是sms太多了，过6，7千封。
我就把它拿去terminal 1卖掉，换新手机咯。。
我的第四架手机，sony ericsson z520。
它，很美，很小架，而且是折叠式手机，帅呆了！
还记得，那是s2 jusco才新开呢。
他陪伴了我一年的时间，在popular的日子，
在you you的日子，及lower six的日子。
手机是在某天补习之后，在大马路被摩托骑士掠夺而走的。
那时wilson向我借手机，所以在他手被抢走的。
不过，我想说，wilson，我不怪你，这事不关你事，
还记得，我那时也把你的眼镜“分尸”，一分为二，
所以我们打平咯，嘻嘻。
那时候蛮伤心的，因为里头有很多珍贵的照片及录影，
真的好可惜哦。。都没了。
之后，我五架手机，nokia 8310，
家里的古董，来自于阿姨那里。
就这样用了半年，没什么特别。。
第六架手机，sony ericsson k550i。
在07年下半年，把我妈骗去terminal one买的。
哈哈，就刚好要买手机，就买这家咯。
这家手机跟了我快两年，
身边的亲戚朋友都跟着我买一样的手机，
因为我，算是半个手机专家啦。
我在用的手机，你跟着买就对了啦。
因为我选手机很挑剔，很都要求的。
我符合我要求的，我都不会买的。
还记得，每次跟我妈讲要买电话，她都会抓狂的，
因为我一天到晚说要换手机，买手机，
不过到最后她习惯了，也懒得理我，因为我都光说不买的。
但我就是喜欢幻想嘛，又不用给钱的啦！
只手机，陪伴了渡过人生的低潮及忧郁，
很多事情，都发生在这k550i的手机的时期。
这手机，在半年前，没了。
在大学被偷的。
第七架手机，现在在用着的，sony ericsson c510，
在k550i不见后的第三天，我很伤心，
一个人跑到sunway pyramid的se专卖店，
在附加8gb的记忆卡及walkman headphone之下，
买下的，RM 1460。
我没试过买那么贵的手机，第一次。
当时的心情很复杂，不过都没关系啦，
不买都买了，so far这手机都还不错啦，除了拍照不够强之外。
所谓，世上无完美手机，算了咯。。
对了，我还有用过3110classic，在tarc的时候，
但不算是我的，只是暂时借用而已，最后回到我妈的手中了。
它，有着我在tarc及tbr的回忆。。
去年有买一架samsung b100，是我那么多架电话中，
最没感情，最讨厌的一架。
便宜的机，真的很讨厌，sms麻烦，很不user friendly，
还有铃声不能更换，爆声，简讯只有几个声音可以选。
很想把它换掉，但不值钱，有些人收RM20-30,
不过要买新机，哇，就很讨厌嘛！再不然就没人要收
买回来RM200，贬值到那么夸张，咳。。
手机，原来背后都有很多回忆的，不懂你的手机又让你想起什么呢？
这两个星期，摩托的事让我烦了好久。
我一直不肯去修理，因为怕维修费贵。
今天去william那里买晚餐时，刚好路过一间摩托店，
我就心想，反正都看到了，就去修理吧！
原来只是一个零件需要更换，讽刺的是维修只需要RM2。
我一直在担心很贵，真的是很白痴哦。。
去william打包时，刚好遇见housemate，
之后就索性在那里吃咯。
分量很大，真的很大，味道也不错。
买单时，RM21.50！！
我问老板我那份炸鸡套餐多少钱，RM20。
厉害咯，没想到那么贵。。果然是间高级的mamak。。
话说几个星期前，
有个傻子为了自己的assignment，晚上不睡觉，拼命赶，熬夜不睡觉。
找了好久，找了上百个网页，找资料。
一个别人只需要找的一份resarch report，
只需要几个小时写的summary，
这个傻子做了与他人完全不一样的事情。
傻子去定下自己research report，
从A到Z自己一手包办，一切从零开始。
好，
赶了好多天，傻子把这份研究报告赶好了，
也在大家面前做了presentation。
老师在一开始知道傻子做这东西时，
就说不错很好。
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为了重考错过了的quiz，
傻子准备好了，等待老师定下日期。
结果到最后，老师没办重考的quiz，
傻子竟然傻傻的在等。
到最后，傻子去找老师，
老师说我现在给你一个题目，
你去找相关资料，之后再写一份结论给我。
傻子，这次也跟上次一样，
很认真的把这事做好。
之后，傻子按时的拿去呈交，
老师看后说不错，有用心去做，
于是傻子就以为真的还不错。
老师跟傻子说，
傻子啊，明天你再跟我询问你的分数吧。
傻子感到有些紧张，
不懂会拿多少分。
今天，傻子传送简讯去问老师分数，
老师，我是XXX，我想问一问我的分数。
如果对我的功课有任何意见，
可让我知道以便我能继续加油改进。
—十七分钟后—
老师的简讯来了，
研究报告-七分
题目报告-五分
TQ
傻子愣住了，
总分可达32-33的功课，
傻子只拿到12分。
老师什么也没说，
简短又冷漠的简讯，
让傻子顿时不知所措。
这个老师，
他侮辱傻子，
他侮辱傻子的报告，
他侮辱傻子这段时间努力和血汗。
傻子，顾名思义，真的很傻，很天真。
傻子以为做多些，努力些，认真些，
就会有不错的成绩。
但结果呢？
在这一瞬间，
傻子感到一阵强烈的失落感、挫折感、难过及不甘。
为什么？
为什么傻子那么努力，
但傻子的分数就只能与不怎么努力写报告的人一样？
为什么老师说一套，做一套？
老师不是说傻子的报告有用心吗？
傻子不明白，傻子很难过，
傻子很失望及彷徨无助。
傻子该用什么心情来面对这件事呢？
又有谁能明白傻子的心情呢？
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Overall I’m satisfied, I did my best in this paper.
But still there’s a question in my mind.
The last question in my paper.
I don’t know whether I answer it correctly or not.
It worth 20 marks oh..
And now I’m waiting for my marks, I’m still waiting..
Expected to be released this evening.
So guess what would happened later.
现在是凌晨快一点钟，倒数八个小时。
考试就在明早九点钟。
我，说真的蛮紧张一下，
因为不懂明天的考试会怎样，
加上明天我将被告知另一个分数。
这个星期，真的很难熬，
压力大到不会讲。。
讲出来，人说你博同情；
不讲呢，人说你玩自闭。
【叹气】
不说了，不想被这些是影响。
努力！加油！
我要打败考试这个东西！！
Today have a nice day with my UNITAR TMC.
The part where I enjoyed a lot was the time of “EATING”!!
Haha!!
We had our lunch at Strawberry, not bad, quite a nice place to dine in.
I had ordered butter cream chicken rice and drink, after a long consideration, I decided to order Iced Milo. All pengsan..@_@
Then we attended the session, overall not that bad, but it was a bit boring for me, I’m always in hyperactive mood, so…
Today I got to know a thing called the HIGH PERFORMANCE LEADERSHIP (HPL). An elective session. The talk was conducted by Dr. Aru.
After that, continue the boring things again.
So it ended on time, and then we proceed to our climate of the day.
It’s exciting, we are going to A&W to have our dinner, together with Amir and Julian. Wow, I had ordered a Marina Fish burger, float beer, curly fries and dessert, WAFFLE with ICE-CREAM!!
Really have a good time today, together with everyone.
I’m looking for the coming semester, to serve my club, and also to have happy moments again. 
Jefferey Tang
看回我上一篇网志，对自己勇于承担的举动感到自豪。
我，没有逃避，反而勇敢地去面对后果。
其实没有我想像中的那么恐怖，真的。
况且我，遇见了奇迹，一切从很不顺利，到最后都变得顺顺利利。
虽然如此，来临的这几天，还是有很多难题在等着我去解决。
我会很勇敢，大步大步向前走，不会被这些困难给绊倒的。
还有九天而已，加油，加油，加油！！
今天，我的天空是灰暗的。
比起昨天的狂风暴雨及前天的天晴，今天是最难过的一天。
处在非常复杂的心情，我不懂怎么述说。
我该怎么办？逃避？面对？
我很烦，已经选择逃避了一天，难道永远逃避吗？
面对，我又该如何面对我自己的过错呢？很内疚，自责。
我是不是犯下不该犯的错呢？
明知道这个选择是不明智，但我还是做了这决定。
说真的，我真的有些怀疑眼前的这一些，因为都很不真实。
预料不到会是这样的，预料之外。
重新建立的关系，是否会比之前来的坚固呢？
还是会回到以前的结局呢？
说真的，这一段时间我的感到很温暖，谢谢。
因为某些私人原因，我犯下了身为一位领导者不该犯的错。
我竟然选择逃避现实，逃避自己的过错。
我很内疚，真的有愧于大家。
现在我该如何收拾这烂摊子呢？
除此之外，在来临的两个星期，我将面对一些问题。
我能好好度过来临的两周吗？我能吗？
I was having a little while of sadness this afternoon, after hearing this song with its lyrics. Seem like not only me who having a sad childhood, but also many people around the world, one of them was MJ.
I felt so sad after listened to this song, the lyrics was written “have you seen my childhood? … no one understands me… before you judge me, try hard to love me, look within your heart and ask, have you seen my childhood”
My tears drop crazily, in an unstoppable manner i am. while i try to sing along, i couldn’t. MJ was so strong, he able to make himself sing this song. This song make my recall my childhood, things were just fine until some changes happened to our family. I had been suffering for really bad childhood during my primary school days, from everyone, ya i mean “EVERYONE”!! No one understands me, they don’t know why i behave in such an eccentricities way.
Days were so torturing, this is too much for a child, for a kid, especially a single parent child. I felt so sad every time i recall these memories, so so sad.. I’m was once an anger child, who protest to all this unfair incident deep bottom from my heart. The approach that i selected was so extreme, ’til many surrounding people said i was a bad kid, psycho, etc… But if, if you all think deeply, or try to find out the cause, i might had survived from all these unwanted incident.
Sadly, no one seen to see my childhood.. People judge me without knowing much about me, no one try hard to love me and find me what’s happening to me. Well, all these were part of my memories. No matter how hard i try not to think about them, it’s still there.
I’m writing this not to blaming anyone or complaining what. I just wanted you all to know, I’m still suffering from this trauma. Still trying hard to walk out from my childhood. For those who knew a bit, please don not feel sorry towards me. I don’t want to be treated in that way, ie: you pity on me. I need no pity from anyone, cuz I know someday i will able to walk out from it.
To My Fellow Friends,
Please have a read on this wonderful article, it might change you life!
Regards,
Jefferey
I received a chain email from a friend about this article which says that we do not have control over only 10 percent of our life. The rest of our life, that is the 90 percent part of it is something we can manage. This article is said to have been written by Stephen Covey but I am not sure. Anyway, read on, you could apply the formula to CHANGE YOUR OWN LIFE…
CHANGE YOUR LIFE : THE 90/10 FORMULA
What is the 90/10 Principle?
10% of life is made up of what happens to you.
90% of life is decided by how you react.
What does this mean?
We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us.
We cannot stop the car from breaking down.
The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off.
A driver may cut us off in traffic.
We have no control over this 10%.
The other 90% is different.
You determine the other 90%.
How? By your reaction.
You cannot control a red light, but you can control your reaction.
Don’t let people fool you; YOU can control how you react. Let’s use an example.
You are eating breakfast with your family.
Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just happened.
What happens during the rest of the day will be determined by how you react over the next 30 seconds.
You curse. You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over.
She breaks down in tears.
After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table.
A short verbal battle follows.
You storm upstairs and change your shirt.
Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast to catch the school bus.
She misses the bus.
Your spouse must leave immediately for work.
You rush to the car and drive your daughter to her school.
Because you are late, you drive 70 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit.
After getting a traffic summons and another 15-minute delay, you finally arrive at her school.
Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase.
Your day has started terribly.
As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse.
You look forward to coming home but when you arrive home, you find a small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter.
Why? Because of how you reacted in the morning.
Why did you have a bad day?
A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?
The answer is D.
You had no control over what happened with the coffee.
How you reacted in those 30 seconds is what caused your bad day.
Here is what could have and should have happened.
Coffee splashes over you.
Your daughter is about to cry.
You gently say, “It’s ok honey, you just need, to be more careful next time.”
Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs.
After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus.
She turns and waves.
You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff.
Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.
Notice the difference?
Two different scenarios.
Both started the same.
Both ended different.
Why? Because of how you REACTED.
You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens.
The other 90% was determined by your reaction.
Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 principle.
If someone says something negative about you, don’t be a sponge.
Let the attack roll off like water on glass.
You don’t have to let the negative comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day.
A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out etc.
How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic?
Do you lose your temper?
Pound on the steering wheel?
A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off! Do you curse?
Does your blood pressure skyrocket?
Do you try and bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work?
Why let the cars ruin your drive?
Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.
You are told you lost your job.
Why lose sleep and get irritated?
It will work out.
Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job.
The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day.
Why take out your frustration on the flight attendant?
She has no control over what is going on.
Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger.
Why get stressed out?
It will just make things worse.
Now you know the 90-10 principle.
Apply it and you will be amazed at the results.
You will lose nothing if you try it.
The 90-10 principle is incredible.
Very few know and apply this principle.
The result?
Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials,problems and heartache.
There never seem to be a success in life.
Bad days follow bad days.
Terrible things seem to be constantly happening.
There is constant stress, lack of joy, and broken relationships.
Worry consumes time.
Anger breaks friendships and life seems dreary and is not enjoyed to the fullest.
Friends are lost.
Life is a bore and often seems cruel.
Does this describe you? If so, do not be discouraged.
You can be different!
Understand and apply the 90/10 principle.
It could change your own life.
Source:
SIDMA CEO Dr. Morni Kambrie (2005, July 07). CHANGE YOUR LIFE USING THE 90/10 FORMULA. Retrieved July 02, 2009, from http://www.dynamic-education.com/ipd/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=124&Itemid=186
