病 :(

流鼻涕

打喷嚏

多痰

咳嗽

想吐

综合以上的征兆，我想我真的我病了。

是时候去看医生了。

:(

Week 11

Seriously I need have to turn off my computer and start doing my revision.

My progress is too slow, FOCUS, where are you?

This Thursday Mid Sem Exam, can I do it?
Before deadline, finish my assignment work, can I do it?
Next week presentation, can I do it?

YES, I CAN DO IT! I will keep going cuz now I know what I want!

=）

发神经

現在很down，今天提起一些过去的事情。

你们是不会明白的，因为你们不是我。

我不喜欢别人怜悯我，我不需要，真的。

我不想给你们加重负担，你们没有这个义务替我担心。

谢谢那些不多问我过去但却关心我的朋友

至于那些觉得我很讨人厌，不值得被信赖的，你们绝对有权利离我远远，我不怪你们。

那些我曾经对他们辱骂过及有过过分的行为的朋友，我只能对你们说我对不起你们

如果你们要什么赔偿的话，要对我辱骂以消你们心中的气，请告诉我。

至于那些对我彻底失望的朋友，你们可以断绝我们的朋友关系。

我不怪你，至怪我自己，好吗？

放心吧，我会过得好好的。

有没有你们，我的日子还是一样过。

就算有多么的坎坷及难过，那也是我的事，不用你们可怜我。

I am going to...

Today I attended a part time job interview. Well, I'm a bit nervous because I never thought it was that formal. I was requested to fill a employee form, then answer 2 papers. One is to test my English Proficiency, another one is to test my Professionalism on the job I'm apply.

I guess I had passed these 2 papers (passing marks: 70% and 80%) Next, I was get into a room and start my interview session. Introduce myself, interviewer ask me some questions, I asked some questions and lastly please come back to our training on mid of April. We will call you again, thank you.

Conclusion: I got the job offer :)

That's all.

Time to work!

Task 1

Create a new philosophy by choosing 4 elements from National Philosophy of Education, Mission & Vision.

Task 2

Prepare my presentation for counselling assignment, youth leadership programme.

Task 3

Write scripts for the short video that I'm going to shot for my creativity assignment and have make sure everyone in my group doing their part.

Task 4

Prepare my toastmasters speech #4

Task 5

Do my psychology assignment on Randy Pausch, deadline: this coming tue

Task 6

Get a good rest after I done with all these things, and be prepare for the next wave.

If you never try,
you will never know how far you can achieve.
Do your best and no regrets.

我真的变了吗？

今天跟一位朋友通电话，

她说我变了，比起以前变安静了许多。

可是我不觉得，也许可能某方面的我变了。

记得几年前的我，曾经也执着、留恋某些人事物。

经过一些事件之后，我也慢慢地开始明白一些道理。

有些事情，变了就是变了。

就算你不依，心中有着百般的不舍，你还是得接受。

人生之所以会感到痛苦，其中一个原因，痴。

放开你的心吧！别再给它枷锁了。

人生苦短，何必呢？

人，总得学会自己长大，扛起那份属于你的责任。

我真的改变了吗？

我想这答案已经不重要了。

Keep fighting!!

This week I told myself, Jefferey stop finding excuse and keep slacking. I attended all the classes for this week. Well, things is out of my expectation. At first I thought lecturer A will not entertain and not even bother to know what is happening, in fact I'm wrong. She give me a second chance, OMG!!

We have a long conservation on that day, I told her exactly what is happening to me. I'm glad that she's there to listen to my problems, and guide me by telling me a lot of stories and theories. Well, I'm now aware of my problem, and found solutions to it. Not really the problem that I first thought, I was controlled by too much negative thinking and distraction. Well, now I now that my choice is correct. Not only that, that to my lecturer, I'm now once again alive, with a clear goals and objectives in my life. Thanks you, my lecturer A.

Okay, let talk about my lecturer B. Initially I thought she going to forgive me and wanted to know what's happening. Surprisingly, no. She even pretend not knowing me, I'm really shocked and disappointed when she act that way. My heart told me, yes, you should go and look for her and apologize to her. At last I almost give up due to some reasons, luckily I didn't. Well, she accepted my apologize and willing to give me a second chance. OMG! I know I don't deserve for second chance, but I'm really lucky cuz both of them gave me a second chance.

I promise myself, Jefferey you can do it. You are so so lucky to have so many chances, sometime chance just come once in your life. Once you let it go, there it will no, you lost it forever and most probably there won't be any second chance again. I learnt a great lesson this week from both of my lecturers. Thank you!


回到这星期生活，星期二补考一科，虽然不是很好，但是我尽力了，这总比之前逃避来的好。星期三与我表妹一同出去走走一整天，蛮开心的，因为我们不断地吃，还有我看了爱丽丝的梦幻世界，超棒！今天我差一点又重蹈覆彻，幸好及时清醒。努力几小时后，便去应战，好像还可以似的，希望不会太差吧。。今天叫了一份assignment，还有一份是明天要交的，还没开始。天啊！今天要赶通宵了。很累咯，明天还要去学校讨论group assignment，这只是开始而已。下个星期及后个星期还有很多小考及assignment等我完成。再多一个月，期总考就到了。现在我已经没时间去想了，心中只能专注两个字，那就是“冲啊！！！！”

无奈的我，唉。。。

不开心啊..

不开心啊!!!

今天跑去找我要的书.
去sunway 她说没了,叫我去subang parade

根据系统显示, 那里有5本那么多!!!

哪知道去到那边,

那边的员工找了整小时都"找没有!!!"

什么?

没有?

应该有5本书的喔,一本都没有!

what the heck?!

太搞笑了啊吧?

没有早讲啦,浪费我时间!!!!!

早知就去KINOKUNIYA 啦！！

白撞的！！

还有，

KL & Selangor到底是不是给人住的啊？？！

为什么天天都塞车？！

塞到我就快beh tahan了！

出街不用钱的咩？

做工完了不累的咩？

那为什么全部还要跑出来一起

traffic jam？

回家睡觉看astro啦！！

好了，发泄完了！

气有比较顺了

谢谢阅读

-完毕-

Motivation Tips - How to Stop Being Lazy

Step 1: You're Not Lazy

1. The word "lazy" is a condemnation. It's shameful. It's not you.

   

   Step 2: Illness

2. If your energy level is low for months on end, get checked out by a doctor. It could be depression or illness. Make sure you're ok before moving on to step 3.

   

   Step 3: Plan

3. Write down what you want to get done - in order of importance - and put it on a daily schedule.

   

   Step 4: Find Your Groove

4. Experiment with your life. Try working at different times of day and in different locations. Maybe you need background music to keep you focused or a snack or nap at a specific time.

5. 

   Step 5: Set That Alarm
   
   

   Studies show people who get up early and show up on time are happier and more productive. And eat a good breakfast. Healthful eating increases energy. So does exercise.

   (Source:How To Stop Being Lazy, http://www.videojug.com/film/how-to-stop-being-lazy)

Alright I admit it.. lol... hehe

It's been quite sometime since I last touched my notes and reviewed my progression.

Alright, I have to admit that yes, I'm slacking :(

Oops, it's time to catch up my plan before it's too late.

Never too late right?

Okay, let's see from where should I start?

Academic, Toastmasters, Music and my messy yet still functioning lifestyle [I don think the grammar for this sentence is correct, but then, who cares?! lol... hehehe ]

Academic

Well, so far only stat at the right track.

counselling, need more revision and thinking.

innovation & cognitive, struggling.

pedagogy, langsung no eyes to see.

Toastmasters

Erm.. There's been sometime since I last did my assignment speech, lol..

Alright it's time to focus and seriously plan for it.

CL manual, erm.. until now still empty, wakaka..

I'm sure now my mentors are geram, cuz i can still laughing here.. [shy]

Music

Long long time I didn't practice already.

Not a good sign, erm.. Thinking of doing something on it.

Still thinking, I'm thinking hard for the best solution.

Lifestyle

Seriously I need to review my time management and my timetable.

Cuz I tend not to follow it, am my planning too ideal or too difficult to achieve?

Yes, there's so many interruption here and there and I'm mess up with my timetable.

Need to re-plan my schedule to make sure I achieve what I want in the end of this semester.

Alright, before I start doing my stuff, I shall....

HAVE MY DINNER FIRST!!

and for my next post, I shall share some tips with you guys.

Ya I mean you, you, and you, the one who read my blog..

LOL...

痴呆症

近日我不断地问自己，我的未来的路该走哪一条？

也许因为我是个完美主义者，我给自己添压力了。

这个学期我读到很不开心，因为常被我一位lecturer针对。

我在犹豫，我到底是不是读对了课程呢？

老实说，我现在一想到我以后会执教就感到很恐惧。

我可以忍受马来西亚的教育制度？
老师真的有那么好当吗？

唉。。我又在钻牛角尖了。。

这几天都不想多讲话，我累了。。

很久没试过这样了，我想我跑太多地方了。

钱用很多，一直到处跑，身体很疲惫。

我的左脚很痛，脚筋有被拉到很紧的感觉，骨在隐隐作痛。

我知道是什么问题，但是我什么都不能做，很无奈。

无奈啊！！

不懂是不是因为之前的车祸，我现在的脑力好像有受损。

我现在在记东西方面很吃力，我那天想拨电给我老妈，我竟然想不起号码。

还有我讲话有时会语无伦次，思考的逻辑好像出问题。

明明想着A要说的，但我嘴巴会说出B来，

或者是讲一些超级没用大脑思考的话。

还有不能够消化复杂的资讯，我得要看很久及想很久才能get到。

现在对记note有恐惧感，因为都不能进脑的。。

惨了！！

我是不是有问题？

好了，夜深了。

要休息了，不说了。

祝我好运吧。。。