二OO九年十月三十一日：人生点滴

心情：轻松

专辑：蓝奕邦《邦》

今日，我回电邮给庆璇。拖了很久，我不知该不该回复她的电邮。

我想了很久，电邮的内容应该写些什么呢？

还是做回自己最好。

说真的，我真的没在生气了。

过去的，就让它过去吧；未来的，就听天由命吧！

希望下次遇见的是崭新的你，一个已经有改变的你。 :)

今天与一名上学期的组员在msn时，得知她子宫生了一颗肿瘤。

几天前，她去看了医生。

医生说，暂时没有切除的必要，所以不需要开刀。

听见这消息，我蛮震惊的。

她向我倾述了她近日的烦恼，assignment不会做，组员们都不合作。

唉。。。我想帮她，但爱莫能助。

很不喜欢这种有心无力的感觉。。

这几天我心中的大石头已经渐渐放下了。

我决定好了，对这学期做出了我的选择。

我已经选好了，现在应该放下这件事了。

下学期再加油吧！嗯！

Self Rebranding

What you had learnt in this semester that changed you to who you are now?

In this semester, I took a subject named" Innovation, Creativity & Talent". Before I enter any classes for this subject, I had a good impression on this subject due to the word of creativity. So when I first entered this class and was introduced to this subject, I gradually fall in love with this subject. This reminds me of my previous schooling days when I was in secondary school. The lecturer who teaches this subject was a Malay lady with a unlimited creative ideas in her mind. She able to link what we learnt in our lesson to our daily life and her classes were really interesting and I can't wait to attend her class every week. Every week, she will surprise us with interesting activities and challenging assignments. So far the most memorable class activities would be the solving question with matches. That activity is really fun. We were given some questions and have to figure it out as fast as possible since we are competing with other groups in class. For assignments part, the most interesting one would be our first assignment. We were asked to bring one item which we think it's creative and present it to everyone in during our lesson.

In this subject, I learnt a lot. It changes the way I think and how to be creativity. I learnt to appreciate talents that existed in different people. All people in this world are unique, creative and talented in their own way. Besides that, I learnt how to co-operate with others in order to solve problem. The power of solving problems together with others is sometime greater than thinking how to solve by yourself. I experienced this during our class activities where we have to form a small group and solve a problem together. At first, you might have no ideas at all to solve a problem. But maybe some your group members who think different from you might get it or might inspired you to get your insight and you will get the solution at a sudden. That’s the great part of working together with others. Overall, this is a great subject. It works like a key which transform my life to a more colourful one and I had learnt to soar in the sky of unlimited creativity and possibility.

p/s: I would like to dedicate this post to my lecturer, Pn. Farah. Thank you ma'am. :)

I'm energyless

I still haven't do my self-rebranding assignment.

How ar? I don't know what to write.

I'm a weird person, I have to look for the inspiration write it.

But at this moment I really can't write lar..

Lose my mood, lose my appetite, lose everything.

I'm so tiny..

Can't do anything even sweeping floor.

Moody...

Someone help please??

No one..

Sigh...

:(

It's time to sleep and stop thinking.

Nitez....

「放下往事... 大步向前走」（1）

前事回收行動有無d人、事、物件過去你一直放唔低? 即使再痛，即使多艱辛，我地都應該努力、勇敢向前走 ! --蓝奕邦

放下往事，谈何容易啊？！

但有着我偶像的支持，我决定踏出第一步，把往事一件一件的放下。

这是我的第一篇。

我放不下的人有很多，我决定这一次放下我姑婆。

姑婆是从小一路看我长大的亲人，虽然我们是远亲，但我们家与他们的关系都很密切。

小时候，我们家都常往他们家跑，尤其是每当学校放假时。

姑婆她从小就特别疼我。

我的童年有很多的回忆是在他们家。

记得以前，我们会长住姑婆家。

他们的家不大，只是三方式的HDB flat。

在这小小的家，好多回忆。

家里头的点点滴滴。。。

工人都叫“马妞”，姑婆则喜欢叫她wu-pi【客家话：黑婢】

都会养一只西施犬，绑在厕所旁边。

厨房有个可伸缩放大的桌子，人多时可把桌子变长。

厨房上方可放几只晒衣的竹竿。

小小的冲凉房与厕所，厨房的窗口可清楚看到楼下。

回忆录：

老妹 以前曾经主人房从双层床掉下来，额头上肿了一个大包。

我曾经把自己困在厕所里，出不来，幸好最后凭一个铁丝衣架逃脱。

我有一次把姑婆家的电话打到上几百块，因为那时看见电视的捐款热线，所以就打了很多次。

我和妹喜欢到厨房玩米，因为他们的米都用一个特别的器具装起来。

我喜欢在客厅滚圆桶型的小座垫。

客厅的BB call机会唱响，bee-bee-bee。

我有一次跟姑婆他们会SG，因为懒惰做假期作业被姑婆修理。

我在这认识我表哥--Norman，我跟他都是阿姨妈咪的心肝宝贝。

还有很多很多的回忆，说不完啊。

我在小学时，姑婆就逝世了。

这件事我到现在还是放不下，很难放下。

姑婆是世上最疼我的人了，她走了，剩下我一人。

我真的很伤心，我很想念她。

想念她带我去樟宜机场看飞机，

想念她为我们准备回家的爱心炒饭。

没有了姑婆，说真的再也没有人像她那样的疼爱我了。

我现在有很多习惯或事物都是因为姑婆的缘故。

比如：

我从不喜欢咖啡到现在喜欢咖啡。

姑婆喜欢喝sarsi，我也因此对sarsi产生了特别的情感。

我喜欢看飞机，就算是在天上飞的，我都会仰望天空。

我对飞机的喜爱是难以解释的。

好了，是时候放下了。

姑婆，我不会忘我们一起度过的日子。

谢谢你，我也是时候该放下你的离去了。

说真的，这并不是件容易的事，但我相信有一天我会放下的。

爱你的Jefferey

我会永远怀念您

It's Budget 2010

Safeguarding Welfare of Students

67. The Government intends to reward students who excel in their studies. For this, the Government will:

First:

Award National Scholarships to 30 crème de la crème students strictly based on merit. These scholarship recipients will further their education in world renowned universities;

Second:

Convert the National Higher Education Fund Corporation (PTPTN) loans to scholarships for students who graduate with first class honours degree or equivalent, beginning 2010;

Third:

Provide a 50% discount on fares for long-distance services of Keretapi Tanah Melayu Berhad (KTMB) to students aged 13 and above. A complimentary 1Malaysia student discount card can be obtained from KTMB. This discount will commence 1 January 2010; and

Fourth:

Offer a netbook package, including free broadband service, to university students for RM50 per month for 2 years. This package is cheaper than the current market price. Priority will be given to first year students and those from low-income families. For a start, this package will be offered by Telekom Malaysia to 100,000 local university students, effective 1 January 2010.

(From Ministry of Foreign Affairs, http://www.kln.gov.my/?m_id=44&id=25278)

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My View Point

1. Wow, good news(PTPTN)!! That mean if I can graduate with 1st class honours then i'm free from PTPTN loan????!!!!!!

2. 50% discount for long distance KTMB train fare? See? Now I have one more reason to go Singapore jalan-jalan.

3. Netbook package? Am I entitled???? I'm curious on what type of package are them(Telekom Malaysia) offering..

老友，我真的很想你

最近我都有一些很特别的梦，都是与老朋友团圆的梦。

这几天，我梦见一位已快四年不见的老友，家辉。

我们重见的地点，学校的pavilion。

那感觉真的是很棒！

家辉样貌没什么变到，我一见到他就猛问他到底去了哪里？

到底是ireland还是iceland，哈哈。。。

我想我是太想念你了，家辉。

一转眼，我们离中五毕业那么远了。

不过我们兄弟俩一起走过的日子就像昨天而已，记忆犹新。

还记得以前我们一起走路去打保龄，去打机，去吃McD，去逛街，

还有很多很多。。。

家辉啊，家辉，我很想念你这位老友！

不懂现在在远方的你过得好吗？

你有想念我们吗？

我们失联了那么久，

到底要到几时我们才能再相见啊？

但愿在不久的将来

我们会再相见

我等你

UNITAR TOASTMASTERS CLUB HALLOWEEN MEETING 10-10-2009

These are some pictures that we took on that day....

At here, I'm sincerely thanks to everyone

especially those who contribute

and also not forgetting

all the guests who attended

our UNITAR TMC Halloween Meeting

Thank you!!

This is what I want to say...

After the Halloween Meeting, I don't have much feeling. I'm so tired, it is the same feeling like cooking. After you cook, no matter the oods is good or not, you don't really have much feeling and will lost your appetite. So that's the end of this event, finally it's over.

Now I know it wasn't an easy job to run a event. Since I was the Organizing Chairperson for this event, I can deeply feel it. From doing the proposal, hand in the proposal, negotiate with student affair, thinking things that I should coordinate, then goes to promoting, poster, ticketing, set up booth to promote, doing decoration, thinking what to wear and many more in the list.

It was certainly the most pressure event I had participated so far in my life. But at the same time, one of the event that I learnt the most so far in my life. Many challenges awaiting for us, like we have only 3-4 committed EXCOs, clashes with other club and societies' activity which make the number of our potential attendee drop drastically. We are doing things which even ourselves not really familiar with. So many things to cope with.. sigh..

In this event, I was given opportunity to collaborate with a few of my friends to run the whole show. We had proven that we can do it. Thanks to my friends Sue & Sarah. Not forgetting my best friend, Tess and Kelly Chong who support me when I need support. Tess even volunteer herself to come and help out in our room's decoration. Many thanks to people that I mentioned above.

My two mentors, I know you all not really happy with what I did. I know you all worried I can't make it when I'm too optimistic and wanted to make this event big. Sorry for making you all angry and upset if I said anything or do anything that make you all feel heart break. Actually that few days I'm not complaining anything, just want to tell out how I feel at that moment. After that,I had forgotten the sadness and continue with my works. I'm the type of person who will always keep to my promise and take accountability on what I did. Mentors, hope you all really can see my efforts.

Long long time ago, I had learnt two simple solutions when a conflict occurred.

Type I: My mum type

First, she will go mad and start blaming, scolding, have a bad mood, really upset, give up on trying and with all type negative emotions coming out, and then wait for sometimes for herself to calm down and then only she solves the problem. I personally dislike it.

Type II: My dad tye

He's always cool. When there's a problem occurred. Usually he will help and guide me to solve the problem, being supportive to fix the problem. After the problem was solved, he will talk to me personally with a mild approach, guide me to do the analysis on which part goes wrong or what should I do or not to do next time. I personally preferred this type of approach.

In this meeting, I practice my dad type solution. I blame no one when things goes wrong, I do something on it to correct it and fix it. I'm sure most of the EXCOs can noticed that. Someone think I'm so heroism, want to take and do all the job by myself and do not pass to others to do it. I'm speechless cuz they misunderstand me. I'm a peaceful guy, I don't like war, quarrel, fighting and also politics. So I just keep quiet, keep doing my job, hope one day they will realized that what I'm doing is actually to fix the problems.

Now, I had proved myself that I am a responsibility individual and keep to my promise. See? I didn't run away. Instead, I faced the problems and take the challenges bravely.

Sneak Peek

领导者

最近的我又在钻牛角尖，人啊，可以很坚强但同时也很脆弱。

近来生活过得很忙，差不多都是早上七八点起身。

忙碌的生活开始让我有点吃不消，因为晚睡早起的生活真的很累。

为什么那么累？

话说几个星期前，我被委托为一个大型会议的主席。

上个星期才去交策划书，由于大学学生部门的主要负责人不在，所以拖到这个星期我们才能见他们商量审核及要求批准。

我们的主题是万圣节，他们（审查我们计划书的）是保守派的友族同胞。

他们处处刁难我们，说万圣节不是我们马来西亚社会的文化及惯性会庆祝的节庆。

我的海报被退了，理由是让人产生误会及传达错误的讯息。
我学会的主席（我的老大）于是与他们商量了很多，做了很多退让及协调，最后他们批准。

我很不开心，我不明白我的海报何错之有？

对我而言，海报是活动的重要的一环。

少了一张能吸引大众，引起众人的好奇心及让人留下深刻的第一印象的海报，你的活动基本上已经失败了一半。

销售小组没什么用心去拼我们这次活动的票，加上种种的因素，我们这次的活动已经岌岌可危。

大伙不够拼，一直给自己借口，如：有上课，有功课忙，要去与学术上的小组讨论等。

而我呢？我也有自己要做的事，我这星期有期中考，我有埋怨吗？我有因此耽搁我手上的责任吗？

今天，我一人坐在学校走廊的座椅，带着不起眼的*新海报一人孤军奋斗，两位有人看见此况纷纷自愿过来帮我，陪我一起卖票。坐了五小时，只卖了一张票...

这星期我真的很累，有好几次我情绪快崩溃，但我忍住了。

每天都在想该怎样搞好，一直与大家做沟通及给意见，我真的累了。

在大家面前我表现的很乐观，其实都把悲伤留给自己，在一人独处时才让它们表露出来。

我这几天有想弃权走人，不想继续搞下去，想一走了之。但我只能想，不能这样做。

为什么我不这样做呢？

因为这是我，身为一位领导者所需背负在的责任。

Stepping out from my comfort zone

An uneasy feeling come up, I once questioned myself should I or should I not. After some while, I decided to take action and take a big step out of my comfort zone.

Yes, what I mean here is MOVING INTO NEW ROOM...

Actually my housemate already clear the room and move most of her things out of the house. She even sms me to notify me that I can now move in to her room. But I don't know why, maybe due to long staying in the downstairs' room, my heart feels so uneasy and reluctant to move. I'm a guy who really sensitive to feeling, so since I had stayed in the room for about half year, I don't really feel want to move although it's just upstairs.

However I recall of a speech by a TM member which I met at DKC TMC, about the comfort zone. Yes, I guess I'm now satisfied and really stay in a comfort zone. I don't want any changes happened and hope things remained the same as I wish. But I think again, should I just continue to stay in this room and that's all? After some moments, I decided to take the risk and challenges by daring myself to step out from the comfort zone and continue my journey by taking another road. The road not taken might guide to a something that I never imagined before.

The comfort zone I describe here was my attitude of making my life just okay with laziness or reluctant to change. The step out would be I'm going to break this rule and change it, I going to be more discipline or ready to go!

Message(s) for all:

How long have you stay in your comfort zone? Is it time for you to review it?

这两天

昨天，我的大学举办了一个很棒的活动，名：ONE UNITAR。

参与这个活动，我获益不少。

我参加了由FACULTY of IT举办的几个workshops。

现在，我会链接straight & cross wire，哈哈。

早上认识了几位新朋友，他们都叫我“sweet heart”。

很搞笑，厉害吧？:P

晚上的cultural night，我第一次叫喊到那么high。

真的很精彩，很多表演及节目。

可惜我买了四张幸运抽奖的票都没中,唉。。。

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今天，我下午12.30开会到5.30 pm，与不同的人马拉松开会。

明天还得继续与不同的委员开会，还有很懂东西要设定。

虽然累但我没关系，只要我能发挥我的能力与想法。

倒数8天，我会继续加油，努力的！！

晚上七点半去KDU参加D'Utama的meeting。

今天的meeting很不错，很强的TTS及PS。

第一次一个人跑去outside club及做announcement，怕死了。。

之后由于大伙一同去mamak，感觉很棒，蛮喜欢这种大伙一起mamak的感觉。

除此之外，我还认识了蛮多的新朋友，还有与他们交流。

刚刚12.30am 才回到家，yeah。

这两天是蛮累，但我过得很充实。

:)